LaurenDSizzle

I just want to say sorry. Sorry I was a bitch whether you could tell or not. Maybe it was just my teen rage or maybe I just wanted someone to blame. I influenced others to think like me, to gang up on you. To be honest I've just always been jealous. Everything just felt like a competition with you. I love how when you're performing it seems like you forget anything bad that's happened to you and you just put all your confidence into what your doing. I love how you're so unique, your style, taste it music. Honestly if I hadn't fucked it up I bet we would be better friends now since I like a lot of what you do. It's always awkward talking to you now, it's like you can hear the guilt and desperation in my voice. It's like we're complete strangers again. In conclusion, even if we never talk again I respect you.

Okay so lucid dreaming is thy topic. So I was thinking I'll lucid dream and after every dream write it down...okay cool but I really was going to ask: If my dreams are awesome enough should I post them to devianart or does no one care and I'll just have another creepy little obsession? So tell me but I think it'll be legit...

At Winshape camps when your a senior camper you can sign up to do ropes and that means things like zip-line and high courses...well they have one where you climb up a tall pole and stand up then jump and catch a metal bar. Well although your attached to a rope it's still extremely scary and it's hard even standing up. Well it's only scary standing up because you can't believe that's really how high you are and how much you've come. Well that's the feeling I have...I've stood up and accepted it but I just need to jump! It's scary...what if i don't catch the bar? what if the string breaks? what if i chicken out? I need a push but i won't get one...I just wish things were in my favor but i'll have to wait two weeks to even get to climb the pole again...

I hate how people can't trust me because they have "trust issues". No, no I get it, I have them aswell. I just hate the first person to jack up the trust, it's like the one annoying kid who ruins something for everyone else...

One of those times...So I went to the dock to hang out with Joseph and Haeden, we sat for at least ten mins. I went to my house again to give a knife back to Joseph. Once I got back they were gone.

I guess I should be used to it by now right. And I guess i'll embrace the stereotype "goth" or "emo" and retire "scene"